Wildcrazy Love

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Just finished the latest painting, was going to post a pic but the camera battery died, so will post one after it's been recharged.

I've been battling with limitations in my work lately, and this painting feels like the beginnings of a breakthrough. Feel like I'm regaining the freshness and life of earlier paintings when I was in love with the process. I've had to put money concerns on the backburner and focus purely on the creative process, and it seems to be working.

like many of my paintings this one had it's stages, sometimes getting really stuck with it, and then finding a new direction to take. I've enjoyed exploring the paint, finding new ways to apply it, and enjoying the freshness the new techniques I'm using bring.

It's more zappy than anything I've done for a while.with a range of paint surfaces. Have tried to create a real intensity in some areas, and contrast that with flat colour in others.

Feel like I'm back at playcentre, (the highlight of my early years, school never hit the same highs lol)the same kind of feeling that fingerpainting and play dough used to gave me.

But to give myself credit, I remember many a finger painting that quickly went from awesome to mud, as I just didn't know when to stop playing around with it. - have slightly more control now :-)

crazywild 2 be called something else!

Well, still working on Crazywild 2, now to be called something else because she is no longer crazywild1's twin, mre like second cousin once removed because it's morphed in an entirely different direction. Not finished yet, sometime I will take process pics, so you can see jus how much one painting can change from start to finish. I'm a bit reluctant to share uncompleted paintings, because sometimes people prefer the earlier stages of a painting to the finished result. So I feel, what they don't know won't hurt them...but it's nice to share just how much exploration goes into the finished result. I feel like I'm an explorer as a painter, because my process s very much a result of asking "what if" what if I do this, try that, and often I'll rip through something that looked Ok to see if I can create something more satisfying, risking destroying the whole thing in the process.

back into it

played a lot with crazywild 2 today. Was really fun, looking forward to getting it finished (tomorrow I hope) so I can post it. Am enjoying using a much looser style of painting, and just letting go and having fun

the dots return...

I may have spoken too soon, Crazywild 1's twin, is definitely bringing out the beloved dots again. More wild than before though. I had reached a peak of controlledness and there wasn't any where to go but further into control, which was kind of killing the joy for me. Although I enjoyed some of the results -I wasn't enjoying the process so much.
So swinging more to the wild side now, with a few dots returning here and there.
What I've always liked about the dots is the vibrancy and contrast they bring. By breaking up lines they make them jump out more, and can give a feeling of movement.
willpost pic when it's finished.

Crazywild 1

Travels in The Wilderness

I seem to have very little control over my art at the moment. I can't direct it, it just seems to go where it wants to go. I've given up trying to please myself or other people, just gonna "go with the flow" since it's not possible to go anywhere else anyway. So I'm calling this period "the wilderness period" don't know where its leading, but just have to keep going till you out...(which may not happen :-)
I guess my art is reflecting my life, i'm going through a period of introspection, where I just want to find myself. I can't please anyone, not even myself in this process, it's about finding what's authentic, who is authentic, why am I here kind of thing??

I'm dropping all the dreams, ideas, and borrowed concepts of who I am and asking who...really am I? why am I here?? it's a spiritual quest into the nature of self.. I may have to go right back to basics, and do very primitive, primal art. Give up trying to create beauty or even art in the eyes of others, stop seeking approval or recognition and just paint purely for the journey it takes me on. I can't do it for anyone else anymore, it has to go deeper now, and risk being rejected. it doesnt matter, it's not about pretty or perfect or anything, even cute original or appealing.

I want to explore a relationship with paint that has no agenda, no goal, no objective except to face what comes up in the process. I feel the need for a long explorative phase with paint where the process is more important than the finished picture & I want to post what happens here. From now on, it's about trusting my inner guide to get me through the wilderness, enriched and inspired.

Angel V

thought I had posted this ages ago ..ooops here she is now, latest in my angel series

if she doesn't sell first time, I'm going to keep her!